Ever since I decided to take control of my life by putting myself in healthy routines in July, I also stopped using this place to write. I mean I was still writing and processing my emotions, but more in my journal, or in the notes on the phone. A month…

I spent the entire night crying because I let myself get hurt by the same thing which hurt me a year ago. …

Half of the time, trying to understand my mind has been the biggest challenge. Hi. I’m back here again. I honestly thought it would take me a while before I process things again, and write things out. It’s 4:53am now. I woke up around 50 minutes ago when I had…

Sometimes you meet good people in life, and sometimes you meet awful people. That’s just a part of life. And sometimes you met amazing people who turned out to be bad for you. Or do we just fool ourselves into thinking that they were amazing in the first place? Then…

It’s 3:25am — really early morning on my 28th birthday. I honestly should be sleeping because tomorrow (today) I am preparing food to make delivery to my families and friends around town for my birthday, and I need to go to office at 10am for a short meeting and to…

It’s my birthday month again. I don’t know how I feel about turning 28, or turning a year older. It’s May 2nd now… I will be turning 28 in 9 days… Life is a little unstable this year. …

A year ago, you came into my life. It was unexpected and you swept into my life like a whirlwind. You were supposed to be just a memory. We were supposed to be just a magical memory that we experienced together when life stood still for a moment to allow…

If I knew the last time I saw you would be the last time I ever saw you in life… I would have kissed you deeper. I would have touched you longer. I would have hugged you harder. I would have memorized how your heartbeats sound when I pressed my head against your chest. I would have memorized how your skin feels under my fingers. I would have memorized your smile, your smell, and how you kiss me like you want to eat me up.

I have been hurt by various people throughout my life. I have survived all of them and came out stronger on the other side so I thought I would be able to handle anything else also. First love. First relationship. A broken half relationship as my first relationship. Heart breaks…